If somebody is anybody, then everybody is somebody.

throughout the last few years, my parents have made it their life purpose to constantly remind me that they just know that some day I am going to "BE A SOMEBODY!" woowoo, imagine THAT! and.... I know it's compliment, meant to encourage and sustain me for a little while longer...a reminder that these hard times will someday melt away to bigger things, that I will somehow break through the ice and step up my game, so I can finally fulfill my lifelong goal, and "be a somebody"

but it frustrates me that apparently, I'm not "a somebody" already. cause I mean....

more than a certain number of people don't know my name (like enough to count on my fingers and toes, family included)
I've never had a best selling .... anything...I have never been on the front page of ..... anything
I still fall for people who don't know I exist. and of courrrrrse, the obvious, is that I'm quite young, a bit too young to be considered "a somebody" just yet.

because of these things, it is silently, unanimously decided that I am not "somebody" enough to be somebody yet. but of course, they say, I shouldn't let these minute details defeat me or be a setback, because I have potential.

thats another word that I hear a lot... it's a word that means "just try harder"
a word that is meant to push us forward, to inspire us to turn all that "potential" into raving success and worldwide recognition and fame. because by transforming that "potential" I will finally be a "somebody". because really, isn't that what we all posses this ‘potential’???

gah.. its all just so dumb. who comes up with this stuff anyway?

I really feel like this is why so many of us have lost hope in us, lost hope in... hope.
we have been working so hard all our lives just to be somebodies, so blinded by our own ambition and frustrating pride that we haven't even tapped into the fact,
that life isn't full of lovely people who don't own a problem or wierd eyebrows. who don't struggle with school, look funny, or say awkward things

and perhaps if we could just recognize the power in our small roles, we would know that we don't have to fight for recognition, and that WE ARE SOMEBODY, ALREADY.

but then theres the media... which harasses you everywhere you go... I see all these big shots... who in all seriousness... seem to have it all. and everyone just wants to be like them. to wear expensive clothes, and adorn themselves in the praise of man...and could care less about whats in their wallet. if they can afford a subway combo, or just the sub. if movies on saturday is an option due to crazy gas prices and 11 dollar movie tickets. who drive bentleys, lambos and maserati one-77's. who boats are bigger than my house... with their last names on it, or throw the coolest parties in their abode with 6 car garages and 3 ¾ pools, their own private jets and all that jazz. who seem to hangout with all the best looking ladies and gents... and manage hundreds of aspiring somebody wannabees. well.. you know what?
lucky them.

I suppose a lot of people don't realize that the absolute truth of this entire freaking matter ...
is that we are ALREADY SOMEBODIES.

I may not know much... actually... I know jack all aside from my 700 dollar text books that teach me how to feel stupid and fail exams..... BUT!! I DO know, that the secret to being a somebody is BELIEVING THAT YOU ARE ALREADY, and not living to be one and prove yourself

you know.... there is a lot to be said for fame, there is a lot to be said for obtaining ridiculous amounts of wealth, power, truth, reality and recognition, but I will not be changed, I will not change who I am to be a somebody, and I know that,that I can keep myself in my own pocket. besides, why is there such a great focus on the physical anyway? is that all we are, flesh and blood? nothing more? have we no ability to feel, to be, to act, to dream..? are we incapable of thinking, reasoning, and rationalizing? bah

I believe there is something powerful about being a bit of a loser by someone (everyone) elses standards sometimes, waking up and knowing you're going to be late, not looking stylish all the time, not having it all together, bringing lifes truest AUTHENTICITY to the plate. yet STILL living true to yourself, and being SOMEBODY-- despite people, seventeen, and cosmo informing you that you're not. who the frig cares if you don't have the perfect body or flawless skin to show that you are making a difference?

because it's not about that
and if it is, it shouldn't be.
and when it is, I WONT BE.

really,we are all somebodies.,
despite them.
and if they can't see that,
they can go complain--
to SOMEONE ELSE.

from who you are, to what you've been, to when you become what you were meant to be....

just keep it real, if its all you ever do


XO.xo
-S