Love is my anchor

I seem to be having epiphany after epiphany these days. I am on a roll... but my most recent one is this...

"Sadness is only an illusion when we solely focus on ourselves."

It's so true. I have been so wrapped up in my own personal heartache I forgot that there are 10 billion other people on this planet. It's NOT all about me and my problems, its about God and Gods people.... some of whom don't have a safe place to call home. A telephone to call for help, a mother to call mom, a father to call dad... and here I am worried and completely consumed about my own issues. How selfish is that?

How?
Selfish... is that?

Who cares that tuition has yet to be paid? Who cares that you dont look like Jessica Alba or Megan Fox?? Who cares that I failed my patho research paper and did awful on my midterm? Who cares if you've I have work up to your neck and have no room to breathe? WHO CARES? Who cares about some stupid boy that made you feel worthless.... really... all these things are just selfish excuses we let hold us down from living with a free heart; and an unshackled mind... From living to serve the very least of these. Have I forgotten my PURPOSE?

My reason for life?

I think a lot of us have.

The reason, I live, is to LOVE. To exercise patience, humility, meekness, humbleness and forgiveness. To love, and be loved. To be vulnerable, to be real. To be truthful, to be true. To be honest, to be trustworthy, to be faithful. To be merciful, to be positive, to be caring, compassionate, and understanding, to be gentle, to be graceful. To be holy, to be pure, to be a peacemaker, to be joyous, to be fruitful, to be good... to myself and so many other things. To be willing, to be focused, to be a giver and not a taker, a leader and not a follower.

Where do we spend our time? You know that says so much about who we are...
Work? School? Guitar? Friends? Family? That's all my time right there. Who am I even helping other than myself???? I cannot expect Gods blessing on ANYTHING that I do if that's how selfish I really am. I have no right to argue why God isn't blessing my life when I am doing nothing for Him. Not to say that He isn't the God of grace; because even though I fall so short of His glory He STILL blesses me everyday more than I will ever deserve... But it just rips me to the core the amount of NEED RIGHT under our doorstep and yet SO many of us let it pass us by. What are we doing? Seriously? Who are we serving?

When it comes down to it, those of us who call ourselves Christians need to seriously asses how we spend our time. If we label ourselves as followers of Christ then we take up that cross and follow. Dont drag it because you have to; hold it high and march. If we claim to be believers then we claim the list above as our purpose and reason for living. If we aren't serving or exercising those things... we've failed at the only thing that ever has and will matter.




Faith without deeds is DEAD.
Argue that all you want; but really.. who are you trying to convince?



Trying,
-S

XO.xo